Someone promised that they’ll catch me, but then they let me fall~

How can I pretend that I don’t care?

You are the reason for my smile and my tears.

I would never be her. I would never have that skinny face or that flawless skin. I would never look good in dresses. I would never have such beautiful face. I would never match with how smart or beautiful she is. I would never be a good, mature and pretty lady. I would never have her singing voice or her piano skills. I would never be like her. I would always be like the childish, boyish, average girl. I would always have these insecurities and selfishness. And I would hate myself for all the wrong reasons. I would always put up a fight and regret it. I hate the tone of my voice or the curls on my hair. I can try playing the piano or reading books or wearing dresses as I stumble while wearing heels. I can try fixing my hair and posing for a photo. I can try going on a diet for me to be skinny. I can try all these things but I’ll never be her. I will never be the girl you love and hurt you. 

I would never be her. I would never have that skinny face or that flawless skin. I would never look good in dresses. I would never have such beautiful face. I would never match with how smart or beautiful she is. I would never be a good, mature and pretty lady. I would never have her singing voice or her piano skills. I would never be like her. I would always be like the childish, boyish, average girl. I would always have these insecurities and selfishness. And I would hate myself for all the wrong reasons. I would always put up a fight and regret it. I hate the tone of my voice or the curls on my hair. I can try playing the piano or reading books or wearing dresses as I stumble while wearing heels. I can try fixing my hair and posing for a photo. I can try going on a diet for me to be skinny. I can try all these things but I’ll never be her. I will never be the girl you love and hurt you. 

“Where were you when I needed you? :(”

All you have to say is stay…

Sabihin mo lang na gusto mo akong kausap. Sabihin mo lang na kailangan mo ng kausap. Sabihin mo lang na wag ako umalis. All you have to say is stay, but you didn’t and watched me walk away. Pinamukha mo lang sakin na di mo talaga ako kailangan.

When you are happy, people will throw rocks at you. They will do everything for you to be miserable, again. They will try to put you in their situation. Because they think that nobody deserves to be happy. But remember that, you deserve it.

“I wanna be the one that’s gonna last…
And be the one that got your back…”

Dreams can bring you happiness. Not until you realize that it is time to face reality…